So. New school week, new month, and new feelings. My sister came to visit me this weekend and we had a really good time, except for any time we tried to go anywhere, we got lost. Whether is was down the street or in the middle of downtown San Antonio, I could never wrap my head around my surroundings. I didn't like it.
Something that I learned about myself a long time ago is I am a big fan of familiarity. I love knowing exactly where I am and where I am going. Confusion is not my forte and whenever it is inevitable, I try to cope but find it harder each time. Unfortunately for me, being a college freshmen at a campus I don't know has me near drowning in confusion. But as I am constantly scrambling for everything, I find myself looking for something I know will always be there.
I always heard that as you get into your late teens, you generally start to lose your faith. For me, it's the reverse. Near the end of my high school days, I started attending a friend's church and found myself re-discovering my faith from my younger days. I discovered that my belief in God could make me happy in a way I had forgotten about a long time ago. Now, as I find myself as a tiny leaf just blowing on a branch of the tree of life (See Bob Dylan song title), I couldn't be more joyful that I have a constant companion when all seems lost as I wander around looking for classes. It doesn't seem like wandering, because I know He is gently guiding me. His love is something I can't and would never, ever want to shake. I've become too dependent on it.
I suppose what I'm trying to say is, I'm ready. I am ready for anything this giant school, huge population, and crazy city has prepared to hit me with. His love and never-ending hope has my back and I couldn't be more pleased to realize it will be that way forever. And even better, I 'm finding I can't wait for it all to happen.
P.S. I wouldn't know what I would do without you there to inspire me.
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Hey you. This is my first time to get to read your blog, because I'm ridiculous... or at least that is what I think after reading it. You are so beautiful! There is a quote that I love
" Good artists exist in what they make, and consequently are perfectly uninteresting in what they are. A great poet, a really great poet, is the most unpoetical of all creatures. But inferior poets are absolutely facinating. They live the poetry they cannot write."
The way that you write, and live life, and view the world is poetry sweet girl.
I remember Junior year I asked you guys what it mean to be Free in Christ, and that conversation broke my heart because that understanding wasn't apart of your lives yet. I wanted that for you girls so bad. I am such a sucker crying as I think how joyful God is that you're letting Him hold your hand... that you are learning about what it means to be free in Christ- even if that freedom is simply resting in him. Freedom from yourself.
Bah I love you Emma.
hey, diana. um, that's the wrong emma you wrote to.
but this is my friend emma schaffrath and she's great! i'm sure she was encouraged as well!
Hey emma.. Nice to meet you. I am bewildered. I have no clue how I ended up on your wall... but I am sure you are simply great
Emma Rocks! Can you say "Pulitzer Prize"?????? (wait a minute--can I even SPELL it? LOVE you! Aunt Sally
AUNT SALLY!!! i love aunt sally! Aunt Sally- I met you before! At my graduation party, remember??
"Emma Rose"--OF COURSE I remember you from when I crashed--I mean came-- to your graduation party! How's things?
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