So the tears came last night, for the first time. I had just turned out the light and my mind began to wander and I thought of my friends. Each of them doing their own thing, figuring out their futures in very different ways and I realized that as much as I want to hold onto them as tight as I can, I want to let them go just as much. I want everyone I know and love to be able to experience everything they want to as much as they want to.
I don't know, the tears came unthinkingly but they weren't necessarily sad. Part joy, part excitement, part fear and a million other parts. I just hope everyone else is as eager as I am to jump on this train and let it ride its course. And yes, it's sad to me that I won't be a huge part in everyone's different discoveries and whatnot but I think a much bigger part is so happy for everyone that it overrules the sadness. Plus I can't wait to hear all the many stories come Thanksgiving.
P.S. Part of the tears were because I want to see your face again. A big part.
