Wow. My school year is 8 days from being finished. That is intensely strange. It also means that the next eight days will be full of studying, no sleep, and forgetting to shower (although since the water heater is out in my building, showering is very low on list of priorities). I keep having mini panic attacks when thinking about how much a few little tests have on the outcome of my future...Okay, nope can't think about it or I will spiral in an anxiety ridden crying jag. Whew, on to more pleasant subjects.
Seriously though, I am so close to being finished with my freshmen year that everything that I have to go through is so worth it. I just want to be finished with San Antonio. Not that San Antonio has been bad to me. It's been okay, but I am just getting sick of not being able to truly start everything. I feel like I'm constantly waiting, and it has really started to get on my nerves. If endless hours of cram sessions and forcing myself to learn a second language in just a few days means I get to permanently be an Austinite, I am okay with that.
Okay, I'm sorry this has to be so short but I keep getting distracted mentally thinking about all the things I have to do. Even as I sit here, I can't help but let my eyes roam to the piles of books filled with stuff I need to know...that I currently don't know. But no worries, I have organized out every second of the next week to the point where I think I even put a post-it in my planner reminding myself to write a blog before I have not time for recreational writing. What can I say, the stress levels are a bit high. Alright, goodbye for now readers. I'll post another once I am in the clear. I hope you're all doing well, and I love you!
P.S. Also, I hope it's not too much to ask, but please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. Lord knows I need it :)
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
An Oldie but a Goodie.
Alright, so I realize I've been posting a lot more lately, but for some reason, I just have been thinking of a lot of things to right. Plus I check my other bloggers daily and whenever they write a new one, I feel the need to do one as well. Don't worry this one will be quick, I have a sociology test to study for.
So for the past, oh, fifteen minutes I have been rereading some old posts. I don't know why, but I suddenly felt the need to catch up on what I've been doing for the past few months. Let me start off with this: I am not a writer. I know some of you think that I can a little bit, and you'd think that all the reading I do would inspire some skill but it really doesn't. In fact, the only reason I do write (besides for school...and this blog) is to reread it and edit it but in the end I get too frustrated with myself and delete it all. Anyway, looking over old posts, I am shocked. Mostly that I have survived this far into college, but also how very ridiculous I am about 93% of my life. Seriously, I never like to hear about how dramatic I am or how over-analytical I am (and believe me, I hear it a lot...) but there's nothing like seeing it written in your own words. It's a little unnerving.
I suppose this all comes down to the fact that my semester slash freshmen year comes to a close in three weeks. Even now, seeing it typed out gives me little chills. It's so odd to remember freaking out about the little things and having to worry about stuff that is now so meaningless and in the past. Hah, it's very strange. Oh, also, it is a little bit mind blowing to think I have actually kept a semi-regular "journal" for this long. Definitely a first.
Blah, okay now it is officially study time. Carson is in the bathroom talking to her boyfriend (weird, but it offers some privacy for her...and quiet for me) and I need to focus. All I need to do now is give a huge thank you to the few people who care about me enough to read this thing and somewhat keep my going. Turns out to be very good therapy, one which I highly recommend. Okay, now I really have to go! Jeez, bye!
P.S. The best part about reading old blogs is reading the comments. I love you all so very much.
So for the past, oh, fifteen minutes I have been rereading some old posts. I don't know why, but I suddenly felt the need to catch up on what I've been doing for the past few months. Let me start off with this: I am not a writer. I know some of you think that I can a little bit, and you'd think that all the reading I do would inspire some skill but it really doesn't. In fact, the only reason I do write (besides for school...and this blog) is to reread it and edit it but in the end I get too frustrated with myself and delete it all. Anyway, looking over old posts, I am shocked. Mostly that I have survived this far into college, but also how very ridiculous I am about 93% of my life. Seriously, I never like to hear about how dramatic I am or how over-analytical I am (and believe me, I hear it a lot...) but there's nothing like seeing it written in your own words. It's a little unnerving.
I suppose this all comes down to the fact that my semester slash freshmen year comes to a close in three weeks. Even now, seeing it typed out gives me little chills. It's so odd to remember freaking out about the little things and having to worry about stuff that is now so meaningless and in the past. Hah, it's very strange. Oh, also, it is a little bit mind blowing to think I have actually kept a semi-regular "journal" for this long. Definitely a first.
Blah, okay now it is officially study time. Carson is in the bathroom talking to her boyfriend (weird, but it offers some privacy for her...and quiet for me) and I need to focus. All I need to do now is give a huge thank you to the few people who care about me enough to read this thing and somewhat keep my going. Turns out to be very good therapy, one which I highly recommend. Okay, now I really have to go! Jeez, bye!
P.S. The best part about reading old blogs is reading the comments. I love you all so very much.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Guys, seriously.
I love I can has Cheezburger. Without fail, every time I look at it, I crack up for a long time. Literally, Carson hates it so much because I laugh so hard and she'll come over to see why and it's because I'm looking at pictures of cats. I don't know why, maybe blame my mother, but I love that website. It's hilarious.
On another note, my birthday is coming up way to fast. It's always a marking point to signify the closeness of the end of the year, which is usually a fantastic thing. This year, however, I have much to much to do and the stress is over-weighing the awesomeness of it. I don't even want to think about all the assignments, presentations, and tests I have that lead up to the extra big things like my finals. Ooh, I shudder at the thought. Plus, I just remember I forgot to fill of that short form nonsense for my taxes, whatever that means. Seriously, it's gibberish. I don't understand it and it kind of worries me about my future if I can't figure out taxes as a 18 year old. Oh, well!
Okay, so this really does have to be super quick update because I have a presentation in my writing class (yeah, I know, dumb) about a paper that is due in two weeks. Sometimes, I legitimately do not understand college. The logistics more often than not make no sense. Anyway, I need to get some quotes for the presentation nonsense which might take awhile so I should get going. I just felt like catching up (sort of...) with my thousands of readers because I know you guys are hanging on every post, eagerly anticipating the next. Well, that's what I tell myself to keep it going :) Okay, I love you all very much! Again, soon!
P.S. Hi.
On another note, my birthday is coming up way to fast. It's always a marking point to signify the closeness of the end of the year, which is usually a fantastic thing. This year, however, I have much to much to do and the stress is over-weighing the awesomeness of it. I don't even want to think about all the assignments, presentations, and tests I have that lead up to the extra big things like my finals. Ooh, I shudder at the thought. Plus, I just remember I forgot to fill of that short form nonsense for my taxes, whatever that means. Seriously, it's gibberish. I don't understand it and it kind of worries me about my future if I can't figure out taxes as a 18 year old. Oh, well!
Okay, so this really does have to be super quick update because I have a presentation in my writing class (yeah, I know, dumb) about a paper that is due in two weeks. Sometimes, I legitimately do not understand college. The logistics more often than not make no sense. Anyway, I need to get some quotes for the presentation nonsense which might take awhile so I should get going. I just felt like catching up (sort of...) with my thousands of readers because I know you guys are hanging on every post, eagerly anticipating the next. Well, that's what I tell myself to keep it going :) Okay, I love you all very much! Again, soon!
P.S. Hi.
Monday, April 6, 2009
"Bad Allergies"
There ya go, Mom. She suggested that as a title for a blog because as it happens, as crappy as I feel, it's simply because of "bad allergies." Yeah, right.
Okay, update. I am quite sick at the moment. Very sore throat, cotton ball head, feverish, dizziness, basically all around badness. Luckily, it hasn't been going on for very long, only since Friday, but believe you me that is long enough. Today, I went to the doctor, expecting a diagnosis that involved infections, viruses and intense diseases. One look up my nose and the doctor says it's just bad case of allergies and that the only meds he can give me will help in about a week or two. What!? I have to feel like this for a week!? Needless to say, life is sucky right now.
Well, actually life was doing pretty alright until I have to leave work early because I was too dizzy to stand. School is almost finished...wow, that is so hard to believe. I literally have 3 weeks left to go and I'll be done with my freshmen year. Now all I have to worry about is what I'm going to do with my sophomore year. Oh, and finals, I guess.
Everything is just going by so fast. Not only is school almost finished but my birthday is coming up ridiculously quickly as well. Seems like just yesterday I was dreading leaving the carefree, fun days of seventeen to join the legal, boring eighteen year olds. Ah, the good old days...Is it mean that sometimes I write things that make me seem especially naive to those who might be reading? Oh, well!
But seriously, folks, time is flying by. I go to school during the week, work all weekend, and just seem to be going through the motions sometimes. That is the one of the worst things about transferring schools; I feel like I'm waiting to start my life, like everything is on hold for the time being. It's starting to work my last nerve and I'd like to just get started! All in good time though. Patience being a virtue and whatnot, I suppose.
Alright, as I'm sure you can all tell, my writing skills are obviously screwed up by my current illness so I really should put a quick end to it. Besides, it's getting late and my Benedryl is calling. I promise it won't be as long in between posts next time...am I starting to sound like a broken record? Goodnight all!
P.S. I miss talking to you. Let's fix that soon.
Okay, update. I am quite sick at the moment. Very sore throat, cotton ball head, feverish, dizziness, basically all around badness. Luckily, it hasn't been going on for very long, only since Friday, but believe you me that is long enough. Today, I went to the doctor, expecting a diagnosis that involved infections, viruses and intense diseases. One look up my nose and the doctor says it's just bad case of allergies and that the only meds he can give me will help in about a week or two. What!? I have to feel like this for a week!? Needless to say, life is sucky right now.
Well, actually life was doing pretty alright until I have to leave work early because I was too dizzy to stand. School is almost finished...wow, that is so hard to believe. I literally have 3 weeks left to go and I'll be done with my freshmen year. Now all I have to worry about is what I'm going to do with my sophomore year. Oh, and finals, I guess.
Everything is just going by so fast. Not only is school almost finished but my birthday is coming up ridiculously quickly as well. Seems like just yesterday I was dreading leaving the carefree, fun days of seventeen to join the legal, boring eighteen year olds. Ah, the good old days...Is it mean that sometimes I write things that make me seem especially naive to those who might be reading? Oh, well!
But seriously, folks, time is flying by. I go to school during the week, work all weekend, and just seem to be going through the motions sometimes. That is the one of the worst things about transferring schools; I feel like I'm waiting to start my life, like everything is on hold for the time being. It's starting to work my last nerve and I'd like to just get started! All in good time though. Patience being a virtue and whatnot, I suppose.
Alright, as I'm sure you can all tell, my writing skills are obviously screwed up by my current illness so I really should put a quick end to it. Besides, it's getting late and my Benedryl is calling. I promise it won't be as long in between posts next time...am I starting to sound like a broken record? Goodnight all!
P.S. I miss talking to you. Let's fix that soon.
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