Hi, my name is Emma and I am boring.

Yep. It's the truth. I know some of you have had your suspicions in the past and maybe even knew it for sure, but I have recently admitted this to myself so let me just explain.

I think a lot of is this new school thing. Maybe I haven't found my niche, maybe I haven't met the right group of people, or (the real truth) I really am just boring. Seriously, I was walking around the grocery store this afternoon and it was at its most packed, given that it was the big H-E-B in town and it was 5:00 p.m. and I realized that I was perfectly content being alone, shopping for my boring little groceries and going on my way to do boring things.

Maybe boring isn't the right word, although it is definitely one of them. I am just very satisfied with what I have right now, which to some might not seem like a lot. Like with school. I am doing pretty well in my classes, I go to every single one, with minor exceptions (it was snowing two weeks ago, my bus was late, and my bed was warm. Sue me!) which to some might seem like a totally weird behavior, but to me, makes sense. Three of my classes have strict attendance anyway, so it just kind of makes sense that I go to the rest. Besides, if I miss a class, I miss the information; miss the information, don't do well on the test; don't do well on the test, waste my time. It makes sense! So why do people give me weird looks when I say I don't skip my classes!? Gah! Anyway, moving on.

I also have boring activities. Honestly, I am usually studying at the library, various coffee shops (Coffee Pot Loooove) or perhaps outside a class super early. If I don't have to study, maybe I'll get dinner with one of my few friends here (yes, I'll explain that one, too) or perhaps catching a movie at the dollar theatre, or, if I'm feeling really crazy, I'll go to the outlets and not spend money. Whoa! If I don't feel like going out anywhere, I hang out in my room and watch Hulu shows or read my Kindle, because that, to me, is relaxing. I eat healthy, I watch the money I spend, I have a routine. Basically, I am breaking college code of conduct.

Okay, so the friends thing, which is also boring. For the first time, I don't have people immediately become my friends. In high school, it was usually automatic with anyone I wanted. Here, however...not so much. Of course, I talk to people in my classes, hang out with Veronica or Stephen, and spend time with my roommate, but often, I prefer to be alone. Okay, I give you permission to go call a crazy hospital because I know I sound nutz. But don't worry, I really am not crazy. Right....? It's just, I don't know, different. And it's not because I'm incapable of friendship or because no one likes me. I think it's more that I'm not really all that ready to dive in. Although it has been months since I started this school, there's still a lot I'm getting used to. Like today, I got on the wrong bus, a bus I take every single day, at least twice. It freaked me out in a big way and even though it turned out totally fine and only slightly embarrassing, it still reminded me that I'm technically a newbie. The bottom line there is that I'm still getting my footing. I get that meeting people and becoming involved is about 84% of the "college experience," and I'm not saying that I will never have friends or join clubs. I'm just saying, not yet.

Okay, moving on so I don't talk myself into a hole in which I get a bunch of calls and emails saying that I should change my ways. The thing is, that while I may be boring, I like being boring. My high school experience, I realize way too late, was nothing like it should have been. I was constantly stressed, dramatic and basically miserable all the time because I made a bad choice when I was a wee little freshmen. I am not going to let that happen again. I will join the things I want to join because they will be fun and good for me. I will not let myself be sucked into something just because it seems like the right thing to do. All I need is to let myself take this slowly, find my own way, and just trust in the Lord, because come on now, that's all I can do.

Wow, no seriously, the rant is over now, sorry. Okay, I have to go take a shower, brush my teeth and be in bed by 11 because again, if you haven't gotten it by now, I.Am.Boring! And also unlike most college kids, but really, let's be honest, when have I ever been like most kids? That's what I thought. Goodbye, for now!

P.S. I'm pretty sure you're incapable of boring. And I love that the most.