I Am Terribly Lucky.

I know I've spun this kind of post before, but as the holidays fast approach, I just can't help myself. Explanation time.

I am terribly lucky. I am scarily blessed. I have a family, a family who loves me, who supports me, who knows me more than anyone ever has or will know me. They know my deepest regrets, my biggest flaws, my greatest triumphs and my proudest moments. They love me because of it, sometimes despite it.

There are people out there who are lonely and alone, whose holidays are nothing more than chance to catch up on TV, a chance to splurge on the good wine, a short break from work or responsibilities. I am beyond glad I am not one of those people. I have people to look forward to, all year every year that I love more than I thought I could love. I have people to make me laugh, to make me cry, to humble me, to remind me of my flaws (with the greatest of love, naturally). I have people to answer to, someone to call at 2 a.m. when no one else in the world would take my call. It gives me legitimate chills to think of the greatest people that make up my family.

Sometimes I forget. Sometimes I take it for granted, amidst a raging battle when no one will back down, when tempers flare and pride will not take leave. But then my heart swells and I remember that no matter what I do, I cannot talk them out of their love for me. Believe me, I've tried. Love is a rarity in this world, made small and unique by indifference and hate, so the fact that I have it, exponentially so, makes me the luckiest girl in the world. I get to have love, unconditionally, as long as I live. What did I do to deserve such a blessing?

We are all human, try as we might to persuade ourselves otherwise. My biggest fear is that they will forget, that my family will break and lose the love. Yes, I know, it is an irrational fear to the max, but one that occasionally gets me at my moments of weakness. Fortunately, I am young and have decades ahead to be proven wrong, with my family ever by my side.

I am frighteningly lucky and I would never, ever change that.